I signed up for yoga teacher training with a few intentions, some said and some unsaid. The one obvious intention was to become a yoga teacher! I was having a mini personal crisis and needed some healing, so I figured what better than a lot of yoga? Yoga has put me back together in the past when I’ve been an unsettled mess. Other less obvious reasons were to fill up my time (unstructured free time is scary to me) and, I secretly wanted to do an unsupported handstand that I could hold for more than 3 seconds.
I achieved all my goals, and so much more. Most of my yoga practice up to this point has been physical truly. I’m a cardio junkie, and needed yoga to balance out my sore hamstrings, to slow down a bit, and get centered. I learned that yoga is so much more than the physical practice, and really aligns with my spiritual beliefs and principals. I also met about 19 new friends that also have similar interests!
Still, I really wanted to do a handstand. I dreamt about handstands and inversions at night. I learned that it’s a practice, and by week three I could kind of hold the handstand, towards the end I felt really strong in the pose. Like I can stay in it for more than just a few breaths. It came from a daily practice with intention. Maybe all things can be achieved with intention and a regular practice, such as meditation, running, healthy communication and thought patterns- anything is possible.
It’s easy for me to focus on the physical. I have control over my body and my physical movements. It’s harder for me to focus on my mind. I set my intentions for yoga teacher training and I gained more than I hoped for. I gained an awareness of my body and my mind, my negative and habitual thought patterns. I came to peace with a situation that I’ve been uncomfortable with, and that I have no control over. My plans never work out quite the way I think they will, but I often get more than I planned for.
So, I can do a handstand. What’s next?